I’m debuting a new section in this blog and it’s called The Weekend Closing. It’s a chunk of victories and failures, listed to remind me that some doors must be closed to welcome a new season with a clean slate.
– Vol. 01 –
One week after getting back from Holland and I feel like I’m gonna melt. I rarely went out of my room because, work, and you can consider that lucky because the temperature outside, on human skin, can feel like 40 °C. That’s terribly, terribly hot.
June means I need to get my ass back to work. And the first thing I need to do is to reconnect with my clients. Upon logging into the platform, I discovered I may not be working again with some of them. Surprisingly, new offers start arriving and there are projects which I am greatly interested on taking. Feeling hopeful this coming week!
The distance between some of my relatives becomes a sore chip on my shoulder, but diamonds cannot be polished without being sloughed off its own dirt. Of course, I cannot change anyone’s opinion of me, of us, it’s their freedom. The upsetting part is that these are the people you grew up with, whom you invested so much care despite the times of being apart. But, this is not for me. I am not in control. For now, I just have to accept reality that this is this and slowly relinquish this grasp. I’m allowing my hands to be filled with a new warmth.
I don’t know how I survived this, but I watched a whole lot of ONE OK ROCK‘s concert (and rewatched it again) which is really insane. Two things: Taka’s voice, and Toru is just mad sexy. I don’t need these distractions.
One of these days I need to have a check-up. I rather became aware of it this week and it triggered the essential consciousness to eat healthy if I want to be strong enough to see God’s miracles working in my life. I. Need. To. Be. Healthy. #priorities
Just had a meeting today with my co-ministers and I just realize how I far I have been dragged off from being a Worship Coordinator with my full year of being weary. If there is a ‘why’ for me in my ministry, I want to grow. I am God’s seed. I want to grow in Him, and I feel a bit upset right now, because the watering and the sunshine has not been available (with the people surrounding me). Thank God He suffice, in everything. I’m still standing. And I want to finish my term till the end of the year.
Saying goodbye to my upsets and regrets. Letting go and yearning to have my hands empty again to be filled.