Why I wrote this: I am not normal; at least, to myself. I’m the one who lives constantly inside her head, with only a few hours of snapping back to reality, try and deal with it, and then get back in. Reality is hard. Normalcy is hard. You can see it in my posts: I am usually self-absorbed. But in the past few days, I was hit with the beauty reality. It’s something tough to gulp at first, but it’s a nice and warm feeling that reminds me of beating hearts and little parades of ants and the dirty dishes in the sink. I’m beginning to like it. I like not staying inside my head. I like being normal. A living human being, not some imaginary ghost trying to pour her world into reality.
Now, it’s the other way around. I’m the other way around.
30 Things Before 30 is a collection of texts and stories to remind me of a beautiful 3-decade existence, and to propel me to pursue much more beautiful, future years.