Happy 2019! Maybe it’s just me, but New Years ceased to be shining and shimmering and splendid. When you’re in your 30s like me, you’ll realize it’s just an extended version of last year’s torture. Just a new number. Nothing changes but the calendar. I’m not going to be a wet-blanket, but I wasn’t really thrilled. Maybe it’s because I wasn’t able to buy my cake on my own birthday. Or maybe it’s a grown-up thing.
On the night of December 31st, all I did was crawl in my bed and sleep. I have not been feeling good on the days leading to Christmas, more so Christmas, and this went on until the last days of the year. It had been raining; there was a tropical depression that hit the southern parts of the Philippines and my heart goes out to them.
The sun, however, decided to shine on the 1st of January, and we took it as a good omen. There were not many fireworks, only honking, only screaming and some luces fizzing, and that’s how the turnover of the year happened. In the morning of the first day of the year, I was sat on my desk, looked at my blog, and decided it needed a makeover.
And here it is.
I was pinning for a store, but the store didn’t happen, because the theme I bought had a fake-store in it (it was stated clearly that the built-in shop was meant for affiliate links). That was pretty stupid of me. But I loved the irregularity of it, and I could always purchase another, just not now, and so, here it is. Hello Caris 2019.
This was supposed to be a Week in Tweets post, right? Well, here we go:
On my birthday, I wrote a post, then slept all day. Oh, we did go to the last worship night of the year.
Is it weird that I still think about sleeping on New Year?
Happy New Year and I hope we all get the sleep we need 💝 pic.twitter.com/KuTyopHOjP— Caris Cruz (@hellocaris) December 31, 2018
Also, I am proud to say I did my taxes, first thing, and even though I knew I would be paying a lot, this was a surprise…
So, I did the grown-up thing and accounted for my taxes at the beginning of the year. Not bad, 2018. Not bad!— Caris Cruz (@hellocaris) January 1, 2019
PROBABLY VERSE OF THE YEAR?
"If you have raced with men on foot and they have wearied you, how will you compete with horses? And if in a safe place you are so trusting, what will you do in the thicket of the Jordan?"— Caris Cruz (@hellocaris) January 2, 2019
Jeremiah 12:5, ESV
I won’t tell you what it’s all about, but I did struggle. This thing was nothing was a struggle.
Pinakamahirap talaga when you try to make sense of something that doesn't make sense— Caris Cruz (@hellocaris) January 3, 2019
OKAY THERE WAS AN ATTEMPT
On Friday, I assisted mama in her business errands, and boy, some unexpected things:
My greatest achievement today is that a tiny sampaguita vendor found me cute and kept pinching my cheeks— Caris Cruz (@hellocaris) January 4, 2019
Also, I’m not talking about eating vegetables here, but you do you:
I made 3 wallpapers for you because I 💙 you pic.twitter.com/ymRx3g11ka— Caris Cruz (@hellocaris) January 4, 2019
And there goes my first week in 2019.
This was the part where I was supposed to wish you well, but I don’t have anything for you but these two: live, and be alive. Nothing else. Because, as far as I know, as long as you trust your process, you’re going to get through. You’re going to survive. You’re going to overcome. For now, take a deep breath, feel the air going through your lungs, and be grateful you are here. And stay. And be. That’s all that matters.