We’re on the second month of 2019 AND I AM SCREAMING because paano? January went by just like that and I haven’t even gathered myself to make out everything that happened! So far, all I know is I stole two days this week so I can tweak (yes, again) my MS, then listed possible agents (even though I have already listed all possible agents), and prepared my heart to start querying again. But something holds me off; I’d like to call it “common sense” and give more time for my work to breathe before I dive into a series of reckless letters and maddening hopes that somebody will like it.
My 6-year-old laptop’s battery got busted, so I took it off yesterday and I’m now working on it like a normal PC. I was tempted to buy a laptop soon (actually, it’s more of an iPad Pro + keyboard), but the eco-friendly spirit in me told me that splurging for new things isn’t really helping the planet and my pockets. I might delay that part off until this laptops completely dedz.
Okay, let’s recap this week and check where my sanity dropped:
I’m going to summarize it all: ARASHI dropped their hiatus bomb Sunday evening, and we’re still reeling from nostalgia while celebrating them in their new phase. Meanwhile, Monday is Monday and:
It’s Monday. I hope you stop living in your maybes.— Caris (@hellocaris) January 28, 2019
I adore Catherynne Valente and I am also a millennial who refuses to grow up
TELL ‘EM KWEEN https://t.co/9r3tPNKDvK— Caris (@hellocaris) January 28, 2019
A strange dream, of course! One with the ghost of yesterday, and the ghosts of today.
#11— Caris (@hellocaris) January 28, 2019
A small school. Kids divided to teams. A lesson in hanging and jumping. Blue ropes. Dress up next Halloween. A Baguio invitation. Sleep in the bus. Walking by Nanay’s old house. Ninang. Forgiveness and relief. How about the kids? Text the parents!
It turns out that I have been so busy updating my MS that I stayed away from social media. WHICH IS GOOD. Also:
So many senseless deaths 💔— Caris (@hellocaris) January 30, 2019
Okay. So I’m delving on a thin line here. First of all, a roundup: some hazy smoke started on Twitter about a rising author and this fanned into a flame; by the end of the week, the author pulled out her much-anticipated debut and people (who had nothing to do about it, and most have not read her book in full) are taking sides. I, on the other hand, took this route:
I am not the person to talk about book world as I am, in my opinion, inexperienced in its many streaks of delicate nuances. Today, however, I lift my hats off to Amélie Wen Zhao, who listened to the voices, listened to her own, and decided to learn from them. Such courage.— Caris (@hellocaris) January 31, 2019
Everyone has a different emotional color. Everyone has a scar. The world is not just black and white. Now, be kind and speak with courage AND kindness, just like the characters you want the children of the next generation to have. The kids you write for.
To sum it all up, I could only say that art is brutal.— Caris (@hellocaris) January 31, 2019
On February 1 (January 31 in most places), things happened, including this?
Excuse me, Toru, you are being rude https://t.co/xZuRbc1FEL— Caris (@hellocaris) February 1, 2019
Also, since I was home alone, I watched the nice things I could watch INCLUDING My Hero Academia and I think it would also be a great YA book if someone wrote it because VILLAIN x HERO subtle friendship
The thing about anime is that villains find enlightenment from heroes (even consulting them for a pep talk, like Deku x Tomura WC IS CUTE)— Caris (@hellocaris) February 1, 2019
Kindness, always. If kindness is what you want the world to radiate, maybe you’d want to lower the tone of your voice and speak gently, healingly, to someone who needs help and guidance. Don’t taint a scar with a scar.